Dear Friends,
My world came crashing down today. Quinn won't talk to me. He won't talk to anyone. He went home early from school looking sick and tired and pale and I just wanted to help but he wouldn't even lift his head from his arms on the cafeteria table. I'm absolutely torn apart. I'm also learning something.
Being a good friend is absolutely impossible! You jump in front of bullets and you get shot instead. Someone's heart gets broken and yours takes a shattering slam too. You jump through hoops, throw all your effort into helping someone and half the time they're too upset in their own selfishness to care! I'm so sick of it! Everyone is either depressed or so negative I can't even stand to be around them! Yet I'm always at their side. A human punching bag for their distraught emotions.
I've known Quinn since I moved here 3 years ago. In those three years I can honestly say there is not a soul I've ever been closer with. Through fire and flood we've always been the strongest friends pulling through everything together. I actually compare the way our friendship is to a One Direction song. (Don't judge me, I don't actually care for One Direction too much. I'm more into metal and grunge.) "Does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes. But it'll never change me and you." This song reminds me of Quinn and I because no matter how much our worlds shift and change and rapidly go from ups to downs we stay constant... Only, now we aren't even talking!
Everything feels out of place knowing that Quinn is alone and upset and not with me and I just don't know how to handle that! I don't know... I think I just need to breath.
Sincerely,
Dawn
#JustHowFastTheNightChanges
My world came crashing down today. Quinn won't talk to me. He won't talk to anyone. He went home early from school looking sick and tired and pale and I just wanted to help but he wouldn't even lift his head from his arms on the cafeteria table. I'm absolutely torn apart. I'm also learning something.
Being a good friend is absolutely impossible! You jump in front of bullets and you get shot instead. Someone's heart gets broken and yours takes a shattering slam too. You jump through hoops, throw all your effort into helping someone and half the time they're too upset in their own selfishness to care! I'm so sick of it! Everyone is either depressed or so negative I can't even stand to be around them! Yet I'm always at their side. A human punching bag for their distraught emotions.
I've known Quinn since I moved here 3 years ago. In those three years I can honestly say there is not a soul I've ever been closer with. Through fire and flood we've always been the strongest friends pulling through everything together. I actually compare the way our friendship is to a One Direction song. (Don't judge me, I don't actually care for One Direction too much. I'm more into metal and grunge.) "Does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes. But it'll never change me and you." This song reminds me of Quinn and I because no matter how much our worlds shift and change and rapidly go from ups to downs we stay constant... Only, now we aren't even talking!
Everything feels out of place knowing that Quinn is alone and upset and not with me and I just don't know how to handle that! I don't know... I think I just need to breath.
Sincerely,
Dawn
#JustHowFastTheNightChanges